it's been a while...

hey! it's been a while since i posted anything up here! was caught up with lots of stuff - concert, work, university applications, and of course... YOUTH CAMP!!!

youth camp was great! really makes you realize how important every life is to God. All the resources, time, and effort spent into making the camp possible was all worth it when we saw lives changed before our eyes. New young people saved! Really exciting! But I believe salvation is only the first step: discpleship has to follow, and that is what I am really praying for now - people's lives that I can invest my time into. It's really been great! Thanks to all the facilitators and all who were part of it!

Hmmm... what else??? concert was a great experience. Actually, it was only recently that I realized that God is again stretching me beyond my expectations... ok, before i came back to Singapore, my expectations were:

1.) get my results
2.) work a bit
3.) study in a local university (Singaprore)

Pretty simple huh? and now... look what has happened to me. Completely different from what I thought I wanted. I never had such a tight schedule in my entire life. (well, maybe not including exams, ok?)

Which makes me even want to commit more time to meeting up with as many people as i can manage in my tight schedule. And I can say I'm doing an ok job, considering that I still keep in touch with most of my frends. I believe that friends are important in life...

But not as important as... 1.) God, 2.) family

Which is the reason why I want to go home before I fly off to NYC... to spend time with my family.

Today, I rejected all offers of local universities... hesitantly though... but I had to do it. heh

Also been working out a lot! dropped quite a considerable amount of weight ever since I came back this March. In fact, I just came home hours ago from the gym.

These few months have really been a stretch for me... it's been a while since i've felt my energy so used up, yet still feel excited about many things!

Which brings us back to the topic... it's been a while...

When I was checking out my playlist today... I came upon this song called "Heart of Mine", which reminded me a lot about my JC days. All those crazy, sleepless nights when I would play this song again and again until I fall asleep. For those who have no idea what the song is, it goes something like this:

one day I may find true love that will last forever and ever
'til then I'll spend a lifetime wishing us together...

...and so on and so forth. (my consciousness would not permit me to type any further lyrics. It would violate the maximum level of cheesiness allowed by the Cheese Regulatory Board.)

While all those memories crept into my head, and all the self-pity started flowing freely again, I realized how insecure, stubborn, and lost I was those days.

But now, when I heard the song again, I realized that I don't have to feel that way anymore! the "true love that will last forever" has always been there, but I was too blinded by the things of the world that I could not see.

Thank you, Jesus.

Now I simply look back on those days and smile, not that I wish to become celibate, but I have since learned to be contented with my life, and be happy where God leads me. That's why I'm starting to trust Him more and more, and I'm slowly letting go of the steering wheel.

take over.