oh... the way she makes me smile...

man... i feel young again... haha

you know when you're young you tend to have little crushes on those celebrity stars? then when you look at them you just get so dreamy and stuff about them? well, it's kind of nostalgic and stupid that it's occurring to me now, again. You see, i'm not the kind of person who likes people i only see, but not have a relationship (as in a bond, a friendship) Even when i was young(er), i would have "crushes" that didn't really embody anything. Celebrities were too flashy, and somehow i just feel that i wouldn't get along with them well if really, somehow, i ended up with them. The same is true in real life - i don't like people who are hypocritical or those who think too highly of themselves. I think that there's always a bar set for us people; to please God first, then men, through His works.

Anyways, back to the topic, well, there's this person in the Filipino music scene that has captured my heart. People do tell me that she's not that pretty. I acknowledge that. But it's just that when she belts out those songs - both new and old - it just embodies so much feeling and emotion that i can't just help but smile with her when those nostalgic lines flow across my room; as if she was with me. I miss that feeling. But then again, when I snap back into reality, I just laugh and think that it's so stupid, childish, nonsensical, ridiculous, and most of all cheesy to feel like that. And you know how i despise cheesy... but when i think about it, yeah, it's not the looks, not just her voice, but the entire personality. She's no diva. On the contrary, she has a soft, but sincere voice. Simple is beautiful.

I wanted to express this a long time ago, but couldn't quite grasp the idea yet. I think that it's just the Filipino Woman in her that made me fall in love with her. Strong as a rock, but as gracious as a butterfly - that is the Filipino Woman. The ones who have stepped up to the challenge of authority, suppression, and discrimination; No qualms about anything. Ones who have time and again proved its flair in sports and the arts in the international arena. Courage and finesse. The Maria Clara type. Reserved, but brave. Deceptively intelligent. Down to earth. Charming. God-fearing. Truly Filipina.

So i guess it's not a crush after all... it's admiration. Yes, it's different. I admire my dad. Doesn't make me less of a man right?

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another valentine's day coming... still uneventful... after... ok, i am old...