a song that i will sing 'til i come home again.

Normally, i don't like the idea of posting a whole bunch of lyrics on a blog. But sometimes i think the meaning of a song fits so much your situation that you can't help but just take the words and put it into the context of your own life. In fact, i've never done this before. But here goes... every little bit of what i feel now --

"Home"

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm (haha.)

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Babe I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
'Cause I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
That this is not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

yeah... that's exactly it. people think that's it's such a privilege for me to be here and stuff... i know, but it's just so hard being away from not one, but two groups of people. two families that i equally love.

And i guess being away from manila to be in singapore and what i'm doing now is really different. Perhaps i went to Singapore to prove myself, to learn the ropes of independence. And i should say i have pretty much done all that. but this one, it's kind of a decision which i had to painfully make, especially after all that happened during the last few months of my stay in Singapore. it all felt so perfect -- great people, people who care about you, great country to study, great schools. but i just had to make the best decision. For my future, and perhaps for my future family. So to whoever it is out there who's gonna be part of my family next time, I'm doing this for you.

haha it's midnight right here. getting too emotional. maybe i need some sleep. my body keeps on telling me it's time for lunch... take care people! I'M OUT!!!