the struggle

this week i have come to accept that all of life is a struggle. and it changed my entire perception, well a little bit perhaps.

We struggle.

To remain true to our principles, at times. Studies first. is that a principle? an ambition? or a fantasy? what about relationships? marriage? Do you look or look the other way?

We struggle.

Remaining faithful. to God, to devotion, to your brethren. Even when everything's going wrong, we still have to look up, block out our mental and emotional enemies and demons. We succeed, we fail.

We struggle.

Financially. Materialism staring you in the face. Frugality calling you somewhere behind. Who do you listen to? The flesh is throbbing, the mind weak. But the spirit looks ahead, dispels the worldly temptations.

We struggle.

Expectations. We meet them for a long time. A's and B+'s are good, but miles away from each other. You float along, then suddenly a whirlpool pulls you down. You still try to look up. But something in you wants to dwell on that metaphysical slap on the face. And yet we have no choice but to stagger on.

We struggle.

Environment. You want to be alone. you want to meditate or indulge in purgative catharsis. A foul, repulsive aura comes along. Intrusive, offensive, and yet sensitive. So sensitive. Do you simply let it pass you by? Or do you stand up and ward it off?

We struggle.

And yet amidst all the struggle, through the ebbs and flows of life, our goal is ultimately upwards. So we continue to struggle. Sometimes we take big strides, sometimes we crawl. Or maybe we take a plunge, or maybe just back down when we are overwhelmed. Ultimately our life, our legacy will be read according to how we struggle.

And for me, I choose to struggle Upwards.

I'M OUT!!!

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post-entry:

and just as I was emo-ing about all kinds of things, i stumble upon these:



This helped me alot in making me feel so much smarter, not only becasue of what he says, but also because REALLY you have to think alot before you can actually digest and realize what he meant and that he REALLY said those words.

But to his credit, this is what happens when Bush keeps words to himself, stops rambling, and PAUUUUUUSSSSES to think:



good stuff. hope you enjoyed them.

If you're feeling down and unworthy, watch these.

Pray first, then watch these.

I'M OUT!!!